I haven't spoken to my Dad in 10 years. He was an abusive alcoholic while I was in my early teens, he would even drink drive with me in the car (crashed once). In my early 20's I stopped calling/visiting him. He never called or visited me so we have not spoken since. His Girlfriend has rang a couple of times but I have avoided talking to her. I have suffered Depression for many, many years and my Phsyc advised me not to be in contact with my Dad.
Many things have changed since. I have been told my Dad has stopped drinking, I am older and wiser and have a DW & 2 young kids, DD & DS. My Depression is managed with the help of meds but I know the black dog is still back there.
I have been considering contacting him in recent months and have just found out he might be at a family function I have to go to. When I found this out it scared me ALOT. Will the decision be taken out of my hands?
I have found myself wondering what type of role model I am being to my own kids if I can not forgive and forget the trouble I had with my Dad. I would want MY kids to forgive me. The thought of DS or DD not talking to me horrifies me.
What do you think?