So we've been separated for over a month now. A lot has happened during that time and we hadn't started shared care yet, though it was all fully worked out and agreed upon.
But the time has finally come and EX is coming to pick DD up tomorrow for his days.
Omg I'm so upset. I knew it was going to happen (obviously lol) and of course they need their time and it'll mean he'll stop being here every second day and he and I will finally start getting that space between us that we need but omg I'm going to miss her so much.
I had been fighting back tears all night. Though right before bed, I couldn't even properly sing the sweet dreams song to her properly cause every few words, I'd just choke up and start crying and I didn't want her to know I was sad.
I also don't know how I'll cope with the letting go of control issue. He's a good dad and he's living with his parents so has got them for back up and support but I hate not knowing every single detail about her and not being there to make sure he does everything right...I've been her primary carer her whole life, I understand her that tiny bit better, including her language which I've seen him struggle with at times and I worry that he wont be able to understand her for certain things and that may upset her or whatever.
I'm just rambling I know. But I couldn't sleep and just had to get it out there.
I'm going to be so sad and alone tomorrow night
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