I'm sorry your going thought this.
First of all there is nothing wrong with you as a mother or a person for going through this, this stuff happens and good on you for getting help, it's not your fault.
If at any point you feel as though your not getting the right treatment or the right care from nurses ect then speak up! It's your health and you owe it to yourself to get the best possible treatment you feel is right for your, and your not alone many women go through this, your not a freak or a failure, which is how I felt sometimes.
I have suffered depression for 13 years, have suffered from panic attacks for 5 years, and many other things related to my depression.
I never had any problems with sleep, but during my last 3 months of pregnancy I couldn't sleep, I remember being so tired but just could not sleep, I would get upset have panic attacks that would last for hours until I pretty much passed out I would still manage to get a few hours of naps in during the week but it was very stressful and controlling.
I was also put on temazepam when I was 30 weeks pregnant and they made me more awake and quite shaky, I must add though that during my pregnancy I was told to stop my anti depressants as they were to strong and wasn't advised on different antidepressants to take which I think had a lot to do with it, where as my dr should have prescribed me a "safe" antidepressant for pregnancy.
When I daughter was born I had the worst depression I had gone through, I had feelings of suicide and when my daughter would cry I would break down have panic attacks and yell at her. My husband by that point had enough and was constantly worried about leaving us along together, he took my straight to a different dr who put me straight into a program which helped a lot, I also had my mum move in with us so I always had some one around.
When my daughter was born I didn't sleep for about 2 weeks straight.
I think it's great your getting help, if my husband didn't do what he did I don't know where I would be.
I never found the wards to be helpful, they made me more stressed! In the end I found that 4-5 counciling sessions a week, the right medication, help from family was the best treatment.
Pregnancy can do funny things to your body, after having my daughter I developed OCD, mainly with food, and lack of it, and also with washing my hands and I have this things where only certain amount of lights can be on in the house at one time. But with help I'm getting better.
I wish you all the best, and I'll keep you in my prayers, hoping you get some well needed Zzzzz very soon! Xo