Well where do i begin.....
A few years ago I started to have weird feelings, I couldn't even describe them. Just all of a sudden I started feeling dirty and gross. I just pushed them aside.
About 12 months ago I started to get the feeling that I have been involved in some sort of sexual encounter as a young child. I had no memories just again weird feelings.
About 6 months ago I started getting little flashes in my mind, like memories. They would only run for a few seconds. They memories are getting longer and more real. The problem is I don't know if they are actual memories or my mind just playing ticks on me.
Now the horrible part...
The memories are of me and my dad (who I am now very close to). In the flahes that I keep having I feel like I enjoyed it as if I was the one sneaking into his room and initiating it....no penetration just other stuff
God I feel so sick and stupid just typing that
My dilemma is this. Do I investigate this? It could truely turn my world upside down and I don't know if I am ready to deal with that. I am really happy in my life and I'm afraid that if these feelings/memories are real then things will change drastically.
What do i do????