Hi Acceptance, I think I know where you are at, I too have had the journey from hell & it is all over as of January with the failure from a overseas donor cycle.
I am really struggling as the end is because my DH does not want this anymore, so it is thrust upon me, but I wanted you to know you are not alone.
Me 42 DH 45 DD 6
TTC 5yrs m/c 12 wks Feb 08/ m/c 11 wks Dec 08
#1, #2 IVF cycles ,#3 ICSI bfn: #4 chem #5 ICSI :no fert , #6 ICSI bfn, #7 ICSI bfn #8 #9 #10 1 egg no shell, it was not meant to be
#11 & #12 cancelled cycle progesterone too high
#13 4 eggs, 2 icsi & fert BFN #14 15,16,17,18 - 21nothing
Overseas ED BFN End of journey...... no baby in sight