I recently found out that my mother in law is pregnant. While I am really happy for her, I cant help but be jealous as I have wanted another baby for a while now but my partner is just not ready for another one. I dont want to feel this way, has anyone else ever felt like this? How can I make it not awkward and heart breaking when I see her? My partner doesnt understand how I feel and I really dont mean to put a downer on her fantastic news- theres just a part of me that wishes it was me instead of her.