Gee, I don't even know where to start.
I separated in October, lived with my folks for a couple of months (with DS), then moved in with a GF until she took off to Perth and I then took over her lease... Now for the FIRST time since I separated, I am actually alone (in the physical sense, when my DS is with his dad) and I am not coping.
We more or less have 50/50 care of our DS, he spends 4 nights with me and then 4 nights with his dad.
When he isn't here with me I cannot shake the pain. This incredible pain in my heart. I've never experienced anything like it and wouldn't wish it on ANYONE! I just can't get passed the fact that as a mummy I'm meant to be able to wake up and cuddle my little boy 365 days a year!
Reality is, this type of situation happens to people everyday. I just don't know how to cope.
I started back at work again yesterday, that helped cos it filled in some hours... And I am also seeing a counsellor. I'm not sleeping, I go through stages of not eating and then totally binging.
How did you do it? When I had my beautiful boy, I didn't expect to be a part time mummy and I don't like it. It feels as though I left a horrible and abusive marriage to make our lives better and in many ways life is better, but in this way life is sooooo hard. I don't want to cry myself to sleep any more....