I agree with GFP. BUt i completely understand wanting and needing an explaination as well. I think that's fair.
I hope you get one for your own peace of mind and closure ect
Like others have said- yes there is definitely an end to the hurt you can count on that, sadly saying this to you won't stop you from feeling it just yet.
You will get through this no matter what- you're a mum We are strong for our babies *huge hugs*