Long story short... since it's sort of a long one.
Over a year ago I stopped using the contraceptive injection, two months later I ended up with an ovarian cyst which burst and caused an abdominal infection. It took over 100 days from my last period I got on the implant for me to get AF again. Even then it wasn't all back to normal, in fact it wasn't until the end of last year AF sort of went back to her normal cycle. Turns out I am unable to use hormonal contraception [I also had a rather bad experience with the implant and an allergy to the pill runs in my mothers family.]
During all this time for the past 2 years I've been active with my best mate. Sort of a friends with benefits thing. Admittedly we were stupid and even after I was off the injection we still did it without protection. Even so not once did I ever have a scare, my period was on time and everything.
It's been over 6 months since we've been doing it about once a month and well I don't know why but I just felt I had to take a test. Mostly because I am due for AF tomorrow and haven't had any of my normal symptoms that I have with her.
I also had an x-ray on my foot on monday morning and quite assuredly said to the person that I was not pregnant. [Turns out foot isn't broken but did bruise bone and tore some ligaments, but I'm on the mend]. However the question sort of stuck in my mind, as well as my GP who told me that is was good that I wanted to have children and was so interested in making sure I was normal and that my fertility was good. Though I assured him I wasn't intentionally trying, he explained how each month the chances go up and that 3 months is about normal for my age to conceive in and that I only really have to worry if nothing has happened after 18 months.
Well, this morning under all these feelings I decided to take the plunge. So I got one of the Forelife tests and I sat down and took it. After the time was up I had the faintest, barest of lines. I'm not sure if I can read this as positive or not..
I don't really know what to do either. I can't wait to have kids but I know my best friend doesn't want any. Not for a very very long time. Not to mention that I am moving to Newcastle middle of this year. If I went through with this I would be doing it on my own most likely and I doubt I would get any support.
My parents might be... but then again I'm not entirely sure I want to deal with them. They tend to chew me out and tell me what I can and cannot do and how because of one personality trait of mine or another they think I have I will be unable to do it. I would also be the only single mother in the family and most of my family outside my parents is fairly religious. I didn't ever think I would feel this way.
So I just don't know.. I'm sort of scared. Yeah I'm 23, turning 24.. Almost the same age as my mother. She was 24 when I was born and already married by my age. Even so.. I just don't know..