so. I'm 11+5 pregnant (ignore my ticker it's wrong )
On Monday night I had the *tiniest* of brown smears when i wiped, thought it was probably just from DTD
On Tuesday i went to work and throughout the day there was a couple more. Started getting a bit worried. Got to quarter to 5 and there was too much to ignore (still just a smear, but more) so i went home.
On Wednesday morning i see the doctor first thing, and he says it should all be fine and to carry on unless the bleeding got worse, or i got cramps, or anything else was worrying me or if it hadn't stopped by Friday i was to go to emergency.
On Wednesday morning, 2 hours after GP appointment the blood turned red. Go to emergency and get seen straight away. Heartbeat is fine, cervix is closed. The ultrasound place in the hospital closes at midday, so i can't get a scan till friday and as it's 3:30 there's really no time to go book into a private place. They book me in for a scan first thing friday morning, send me home and again tell me if anything gets worse to come back in. Dr says that bleeding is quite common at 12 weeks, and could be from the placenta developing. On Wednesday night at 9.30 I go to the toilet and there is a big gush of blood and big clots go to the hospital, lots of cramps, lots more blood. Wait 5 hours and go home without being seen as I am deliriously tired and have decided there's not much they can do if I'm miscarrying anyway, as if i am it's not actually *happening* yet. The triage nurse agrees and says pretty much all they'll do is check my cervix again. Again told to come back if it gets worse. Go home having lost all hope that my baby is ok.
This morning i wake up and i have no more cramps, and the bleeding has lessened significantly. Am I stupid for still hoping? my scan is at 9 tomorrow, I just want to know. Has anyone had a big bleed and it turned out ok? sorry it's so long.