There are so many alarming signs in your posts. Please let your family know and I'm sure they will do what they everything they need to get you home. This is not a safe place.He threw something at you then accused you of doing it to yourself??He is blaming you for taking everything away from him??He doesn't want you going out with him because you might spoil his fun.. he wants to use coke over other drugs.. This is not someone who has used drugs 3 times in 1 year, this is someone who appears to value drugs more than his family right now. You have major financial problems yet he can afford drugs?? He should be doing everything in his power to get work to support his family. It all just seems so unbelievably selfish and at a time when you should be excited & celebrating your baby. Please don't let him guilt you in to staying. Depression or not you don't deserve to be treated like that. Please look after yourself!