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Basically to sum it up, self harm turned into alcohol and drug abuse for me!
My dp doesn't even know the extent. He has no idea my scars are from self harm. I'm so embarrassed.
I hate that my grandmother brings it up in conversation as my "rough patch"... Umm yeh, why bring it up at all b**** .. Just to remind me how crap I feel about my past that I wish it didn't happen at all...?
When I met dp I was into the whole party scene, but luckily I'm a sucker for love. He hated that I was on drugs and I gave it up just like that for him.
4 years later and to be honest, he saved my life.
In saying that though, there are weeks that I sit back and in a way miss my life, I'm embarrassed that it took another persons love and acceptance for me to respect myself enough to give it all up, because I sure as hell would have never done it on my own!
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