Thank you so much for sharing, everyone. I'm crying while reading this, I'm so glad to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. I started this thread because it struck me that even though we've only just started TTC, I'm 29 and I remember being jealous when I was 22 and my SIL was pregnant with my nephew. Even though we haven't been "trying" up till now, I was still crushed every month when AF arrived. I totally relate to the fear thing. I want a baby so badly and I've always felt like it's not going to happen for me for some reason.