Probably just a vent, but I'm so angry right now.
DH and I have been in marriage counseling for a few weeks after a very tough few months since DD was born. But I feel so angry!!!
He comes home tired (as usual) and after helping with dd's bath, he feeds her half the bottle then gives up because she's fussing a bit (overtired - she hasn't slept well today). So I take over and finish the feed. He says he doesn't want to put her to bed so I do it, no worries.
He wants pizza for dinner so I order it and go pick it up. I ask him to clean up and he does it half-heartedly. I pick up the plates off the sink and put them in the dishwasher. Which is right next to the sink.
I mention that there's washing on the line, he ignores me. So I wash and sterilize the bottles, empty the garbage, take the washing off the line, make up the pear purée for dd's breaky as we were out of food for her, wash up, sweep the kitchen... I take a call from a work friend and when I hang up he's disappeared. The TV is still on. I go upstairs and he's asleep in bed. To get there, he stepped over the pile of his clothes that I had sorted earlier today with the intention of washing them but got busy with a cranky bub. So I go back downstairs, turn off the outside lights he left on when he fed the dogs and close the back door that he left open.
We were going to watch a movie but I had to get this stuff done first. He didn't even say goodnight.
The counsellor said it's healthy to recognize when you need time out and that DH is good at doing that. But why is it always at my expense??? I'd love to just do my own thing but there's no chance until everything is done. Once, I asked him to watch DD while I watched a tv show for an hour. He played with her right next to the TV for 10 minutes then gave her back to me because he supposedly had to make a work call. When I went upstairs he was stuffing around on the computer.
If I say anything, I'm being over sensitive "because of the PND" or its my fault because I should have asked for his help specifically.
To make it worse I was really excited about embarking on a course this year, and last night he asks if I've considered how it will impact him and DD - he seemed shocked that I would "just expect him to look after her" when I needed time to study.
10 mins later he's complaining that he wants to go on a 5 day holiday with the boys and have time on the weekends to watch UFC at the pub.
Sorry, just want to cry and scream and punch something but I have no-one to talk to