DH and I had “the talk” last weekend. We decided it was time to put on our trying hats, so to speak and make another baby.
DD was such a surprise to us, partially because we weren’t outwardly “trying” and secondly because I had been off contraception for 3 years and nothing was happening. This time I have decided to take a more controlled approach to the whole conception scenario.
Well what a nightmare. Firstly, it’s probably a terrible idea for someone who is so hell bent on controlling every aspect of her life to even consider that she may be able to control a situation so uncontrollable and secondly, the more I look into it the more disheartened I become. There is far too much information available on Dr Google.
Seriously, who would have thought having babies was so complicated. Being someone who has not really experienced much of people with fertility trouble this is a whole new kettle of fish and its turning me obsessive.
So far in the last week I have managed to convince myself that I ovulated on the 8/1/12, DBD on all the right days and should be pregnant right??!! Wrong! I’m currently 11 DPO have taken 3 pregnancy tests and all BFN. I’m getting disheartened and impatient and its only our first month trying. I guess I have never thought about how difficult making a baby is, who’d have thought right? As far as I was aware, you stopped contraception, had sex and huzzah a baby was made!
I keep having all these “early pregnancy symptoms” and have myself convinced I’m pregnant, but all the tests so far have been negative. I think I’m letting myself get carried away in all the information. Is there is such a thing as being too informed? Or perhaps subconsciously I’m making the symptoms appear thinking I can imagine a baby into my belly! Crazy right!
I know I’m freaking myself out, getting too anxious, getting too ahead of myself, gosh, its only the first month of “trying”. My body still has me convinced I’m pregnant… which leads to a massive disappointment when I test and its BFN! I guess I just need to remind myself that I’m in early stages, there are people worse off, been trying for longer etc etc and to stay POSITIVE!
Anyone else out there that can relate??? Or am I just crazy. lol