Some body has really upset me today. I'm on another forum and I admitted that I was jealous of my best friend/ sister in law because she's been able to get pregnant really easily. One part of me is really excited for her and excited that I'm going to be an aunt again but there's a part of me that wishes it was me instead that had gotten pregnant although I would never ever let on to her about it as I wouldn't want to put a damper on her excitement.
A lady commented that things like that make her sick and there is no place for jealousy or envy in a friendship. I thought these forums were here as an outlet for those feelings that you can't share with family and not a place to be judged. I wish I didn't have those feelings and thoughts in the back of my mind but I can't dispel them. Does that make me a terrible friend??