Thanks everyone, I am thinking of studying but not sure what yet. I am also thinking of learning piano maybe, something I always wanted to do. I know I don't need a man to make me happy but it's just hard feeling like this.
I love my kids but I hate being just a mum, I am a human being. I have no hobbies etc. I wish things were different. If I had a time machine I'd use it to go back in time and not have kids so young and not have them to a ********* man.