I'm new to this forum so "hi" . Hope no one minds but I really need to "get it all out". My current pg has been an absolute rollercoaster road and today I find anxiety levels are getting ridiculous and I need a little vent. I'll apologise in advance if I'm a little long-winded.
This is my third pg and I'm 8 weeks today. I'm an older mum - just turned 39 - though my other children are 2 and 4, so I've had recent pregnancies more or less. Both previous pregnancies were straightforward, no dramas with conception, pregnancy or births. Unlike this pregnancy - I've been classed as a "threatened miscarriage" since the word go!
Pre-pregnancy #3, DH and I had issues conceiving. It took us 12 months -I had a short luteal phase, DH had low sperm morphology. I did Clomid for 5 months and we got nowhere, then in September we followed an alternate path of acupuncture and TCM.
I didn't actually think we'd conceived this month because I got AF. I only tested because AF was lighter than normal and my BBT was elevated. Low and behold, I got a BFP at 3w5d. The bleeding - either light or spotting - has continued virtually ever since. It had stopped for 5-6 days last week, but yesterday I started spotting lightly again. It didn't phase me as I'm so used to it. Albeit I wish I wasn't!!
I've had about 8 blood tests in the past month, which all showed my hcg increasing. My progesterone has been up and down a bit, and I'm now on progesterone pessaries nightly. I had a scan two weeks ago (6w) which showed a single uterine pregnancy with a heartbeat of 96bpm. Apparently it was slightly on the low side but still considered "normal".
The reason why I'm suddenly so anxious, is that just before I got out of bed this morning, I experienced a sudden small gush of fresh red blood. It wasn't heaps, but still "enough". I started off seriously worried, but since then I've had no further gushes and no bright red blood - more pinky-stained mucous when I wipe. I decided to bring forward my next scan (was meant to be next Fri), to this afternoon. I haven't had any cramps or pains, though I feel a bit bloated.
It's also niggling me that I had morning sickness last week (no vomitting though thankfully), but in the past 2-3 days I haven't felt too bad. I don't generally suffer morning sickness (very mildly with DS2), so I've no idea if something is really going on, or if this is just "my pregnancy, my way", if that makes sense. It's getting hard not to be paranoid about everything, and I'm not generally paranoid by nature.
I'm not looking for hugs etc, but if anyone has any experience with bleeding during an otherwise healthy pregnancy I'd love to hear it. The GP and scanner from 2 weeks ago told me that some women do bleed during pregnancy but have perfectly healthy babies. That's all well and good, but I'm really starting to feel the pinch of this one. Particularly when my last two pregnancies were straight forward. My poor kids too - because I'm anxious I'm a bit short with them.
This afternoon's scan can't get here quick enough. Even if it's not good news (which I am strangely prepared for), at least by tonight I should know what's going on.
Thanks for the vent ... I think I just needed to lay it all out on paper. What a way to introduce myself, huh?