My hubby and I recieved the dread results from an amniocentesis test that confirmed our little miracle had down syndrome.
while we both agree that termination is the best option - not just for the well-being and quality of life for the child, but also for ours (as selfish as this may sound) in how it would affect us emotionally, financially & mentally in raising a child with a disability.
Deep down we know its the right thing to do but it doesnt take the sorrow and guilt away.
Its something that we do not feel we can share with our family or friends as it was difficult enough to come to this decision without the worry of being judged for making this choice. I dont think I could handle being told I've made the wrong choice and I know a part of me will always wonder if I really am doing the right thing.
the worst part is that I will need to deliver the baby at 19 weeks in a few days and the thought of this process alone is overwhelming.
just wondering if there is anyone out there who has been thru this and knows much about the process? My biggest fear is that the baby will suffer - although I've already given it a death sentence I'd really hate to think it would be in any form of pain from the process.
I dont know if I could handle seeing it to say goodbye, or knowing what gender it was...