It has been a while since I had written anything here. I am on recovery from surgery for an ectopic pregnancy. I had surgery on the 18th of December 2011. I really don't know why it happened, Apparently I was around 4 weeks. I am not sure if I need to speak to any one about what happened. When I go to sleep I am dreaming that I am pregnant and am Pregnant with twins. I have pregnancy dreams it seems as soon as a I fall asleep. I am not sleeping until around 5am, I figure I stay up all night sleep most of the day I don't have to really see any one i live with. I see pictures of babies or kids and make me start wondering of what could have been. I want to try again but scared too.
Not sure If I need to speak to any one but have quiet a few questions in my mind about it but I know will probably never get answered. Thing is my doctor never picked up of it possibly being an ectopic pregnancy, from day one was negative about it and said i probably lost it, as did a scan the day i found out without ordering a blood test,and as couldn't find nothing suggested i had m/c. I was told i should put in a complaint about my doctor, for her attitude towards me. Anyways, I had a bit of a cry the day i came out of surgery and husband took me home. since then I have not cried, but have apparently been quiet. not really talking to any one. Has this happened to anyone here and how have they handled it. Have they been able to move past it and had a family. The hospital threw me out a few days later sent me home with medication to take. i was told i would see the hospital nun or priest but they never came around, hospital never suggested fro me to see any one.