Rubeedoo - Thank you so much for your kind words and for thinking of me. It is very comforting to have my grief acknowledged, many people mean well and tell me how lucky I am to have DS (I know I am) but that doesn't takea way from this sense of loss. I really do appreciate your heartfelt words, thank you. And I will be here cheering you on from the sidelines praying to hear your BFP. When are you planning your transfer?
Starfish - Thanks also for your kind words. I so admire your strength in carrying on. DH and I had a chat the other day and he was telling me how broody he feels too. As much as we love watching DS grow it's a constant reminder that we won't have the baby/toddler years again. DH is open to the idea of possibly trying IVF again, funds are still an issue so we are not sure how to make this decision. After 4 failed attempts where do we draw the line? If we don't do it again I know I will find my way eventually but it is a long hard road. I am so blessed that I have such amazing support from the ladies on here to help me through.
I love hearing about your pg. How amazing that you can feel her now. Yes it must be surreal to see yourself growing. Enjoy every moment as it goes sooo fast. Have you thought of any names?
Trying - You are so right, secondary infertility is not spoken about/ acknowledged. I only actually know one woman who has a sole child by choice and sadly her reasons for not wanting another are because she enjoys her life the way it is. She doesn't spend much time with the child she does have so we are different types of parents. I think it would be interesting to hear why people choose only one but then I get stuck on the fact that they still had a choice. I don't. I am still not ready to accept that I will never have another even though all evidence is telling me it's unlikely I will ever be pg again. It's very hard to let go of the family you envision. I feel so lucky to have found this forum where primary and secondary inferile woman are mutually supportive, it really is a rare blessing.