Crofty, I'm so sorry you feel this way. Christmas is such a difficult time for many, as it brings up so much emotions. I believe you do have hope. The specialist will tell you what he thinks, and we hope that he will be able to get you pregnant. What did your FS say your prognosis is? Are is Dr M your current doctor?
Are you having any time off for Christmas are you able to do some fun things, like having a few drinks with friends? Will you see your family?
I hope you can get through this, and we are here to help you and be a crutch.