So after a m/c in August and finally getting another bfp last Tuesday, I am now going through this again.
I am so disappointed and angry with myself...what is wrong with me?
In August I started brown spotting even before I knew I was pg (that was what prompted me to the test) but hcg wasn't doubling and at what should have been 6 or 7 weeks a blighted ovum was confirmed. 2 days later I started m/c naturally. So we waited for one cycle to try again and then last week got bfp, confirmed by gp on Thursday.
I was so happy, did everything by the book, took it really easy, took my vitamins, avoided the foods you aren't supposed to eat. My nan died on Friday night (back in the UK - all my family are in the uk) so I was really upset and then had a tiny bit of spotting Sunday night and full blown bleeding, clotting and cramping by last night. It's all over.
I was so confident that these things can happen with first pregnancies and that things would be fine the second time round, I am so devastated. There must surely be something wrong with me for this to happen again?
Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get it out I guess, we hadn't told any family as we were waiting until after my nans funeral was over but now I don't think I'll tell my mum at all, she has enough on her plate right now
Thanks for reading xx