I haven't been through this myself but my heart is truly breaking for you, I can't imagine the pain you are feeling.
Please please be kind to yourself, allow yourself time to grieve, rest and sIrrpund yourself with people who will support and love you, ie not your boyfriend if he is making you feel worse. Do you have even just one close friend you can talk to? Also does the place where you got it done offer counseling, they really should but I'm not sure if that's common or not.
I really hope you are ok and can get the support you need at least til you can work through your feelings with your counsellor. I'm thinking of you