You poor thing. It's ok to be sad. In a way, you're going through a mourning period and there's nothing wrong with that. Take the time to be kind to yourself and know that you did what you did because it was for the best. I'm so sorry that you don't have more people around you to talk to at this time to share your feelings and emotions with. Know that there are plenty of us here who are happy to be a shoulder to cry on.