Firstly I am not writing this to be attacked by anti abortionists and will not read comments if they start to imply that way. I am writing this because I am deeply hurting and am desperate to talk to someone who has been in a similar situation.
I had a termination a few days ago. Some of you may have read my posts from a week or so ago when I was undecided on what to do. I made the decision based on what I believe to be the best for myself right now and what I would cope with better in the long run. However, the decision has hurt me beyond what any words can describe and even though it still was probably for the best, I am still feeling incredible emotional pain, guilt and even regret. I have not slept for three nights for I had nightmares the night before my termination.
My head tells me I did the right thing but every other part of me tells me I didn't, is this normal? It also didn't help that when they did my scan right before the termination they had the screen in full view of me and I saw a glimpse of my baby (I was 7 - 8 weeks on).
Now I can't stop crying, I can't sleep and I feel like I will never feel like my true self again. I feel so lost and alone. I can't talk to my partner for his reactions to my pregnancy were part the reason for this termination. My counsellor is away until mid January and I have nowhere else to go.
Someone please tell me if they have ever had these feelings after a termination and how they coped??