Thanks AB, that was sorta what I needed when I posted. Now I regret posting in the first place, just made me feel worse.
My partner thinks that's what they are doing too. Someone was fired a few months ago, just before his wife was due to deliver. He was feeling the same way I am right now, like they were picking on him and watching over his shoulder just to pick up on anything they possibly could.
I'm not feeling very strong right now, I wish I could stand up and not let them get me down.