Thank you Leannep and zakmick for your replies and support.
Zakmick you are always so supportive and lovely to chat to and I so appreciate it.
I am feeling a little better this morning, having hit the bottom of an emotional barrel last night.
The thing that now stands out for me the most is that I'm just not ready to go on this journey yet. I think I would like some time to enjoy being healthy and having minimal pain for the first time in many years before I start putting my body through this process.
Whilst I am 25years though, DH is 32 and is very against being an 'old dad'. He has said that 35years is his limit on having another baby. But that still gives me a bit of time.
I am wondering if I should go to the appointments though so that I have all the information to make a more informed decision after having a break.