Oh Zakmick, you are not alone. The rollercoaster does not end with a BFP for some of us....it was in fact harder after my BFP...I was constantly anxious and even depressed that it was too good to be true. And that made it really hard for me to enjoy my first trimester let alone telling people I was pregnant. I know everyone would be happy for us cos they knew we had a long journey but it is just too scary to tell people. Then came the horrid NT scan when I cried so much. I never anticipated going through more sh#t like that. My tummy was showing and I just didnt want people to see that I was pregnant cos my baby could have down syndrome! Did the amnio at 15weeks and thereafter fearing I might miscarry after the procedure. Finally everything seems on track now at 17weeks but still I havent told many people...Only the forums know...I am just cautiously moving along. I think our journey really made us like that and I wish I wish I can put down all the stupid fears and believe everything will be fine from now on.