I'm so sorry traveler
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I'm so sorry traveler
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Absolutely Heartbreaking news traveler, I am so sorry.
No one deserves to go through something like this, especially you...
Know that all our angel babies are together...
Here for you if you need anything xxx
I'm really so sorry to hear Traveller. What devastating news, I don't know what to say. This baby making is really gut wrenching at times. Wishing you and DH all the very best as you recover and find the strength you need to get through it. xx
Short and sweet because I sent this from my iPhone.
Just wanted to say hi and I hope you don't mind me joining..
This is DH & I first IVF cycle due to mfi (I'm as healthy as a horse fertility wise apparently - apart from being big bold and beautiful)
I was reading all your stories and what an insiprational bunch of ladies you are.
Traveler - I am so sorry for your loss.. Sending big hugs to you.
Hoping that this will be a short journey for DH and I but realistic that it might not be..
HUgs & Baby Dust to you all.
Traveler- My heart sank when I read your update. I have no words, just lots of hugs . I will never understand why such awful things happen to those who least deserve them.
TTHC- Sorry to hear that your Nov cycle was such a disaster. I have noticed that there seems to be a phenomenon of the "2nd stim slump". Can't count how many BHers I've come across with good 1st stim results, shocking 2nd stim, then good 3rd stim. Myself included! I'm glad to hear your Dad is responding well to his chemo, I hope his prognosis is good & he'll be in remission soon. If you need to talk about it, feel free to send me a PM OK? I won't be having ET this cycle. Its going to be freeze all while we wait for PGD test results, then FET next month if there's any good embies.
Paddlegirl- Nice to hear from you! Not long 'til your FS appointment, fingers crossed all your results have come back in the normal ranges
Lola- You post to Traveler was so touching, I hope neither of you ever have to suffer that heartbreak again. Anything happening for your FET cycle as yet?
Felicita- yay for getting through the sniffing phase! Hope you were able to start jabbing as planned & the Puregon works a treat
EO- hope things are nice & quiet your first few days back at work.
Jen- Hi & welcome aboard! I think its very smart of you to have sought testing quite early in your TTC journey. You guys sure didn't waste any time getting help . It took me a good 2 yrs to warm up to the idea of IVF. I hope you breeze through your first cycle and won't be waiting long for your BFP . How did you go with your first jab?
Hi to Bebe, Quartz, Bella, PinkB and all the other girls
AFM- Yesterday I met the acupuncturist I'll be seeing for pre/post FET treatment and got things sorted in that department. So good to find an IVF acu specialist out west (thanks Bella ). Had my 2nd scan this morning and they measured 8 decent follies this time. They've grown since Mon & are still in a nice cluster which I'm cheering about. Waiting for the clinic to call with next instructions, pretty certain they'll tell me to come back Friday for another US & BT.
Thank you... It's a journey we were hoping we wouldn't have to be on but to have a little bub in our arms, well, its a journey we will take
This month is our first cycle.
I started on 112.5 on Gonal-F Tuesday night (and still sniffing Synarel) - from things I have read this appears to be a low dose of Gonal-F. I am only guessing it is low because at the scan to check my ovaries and make sure there were no cysts before I started the Gonal-F indicted approx 20 follies on my right ovary and approx 16 on my left.. I guess they want to avoid over stimulation..
I have my 6 day LH blood test on Monday and then my 9 day LH blood test and scan on Wednesda - hopefully they will be able to give us the EPU day. Before xmas they indicited sometime the week of the 23rd... All things go well we will be look at ET the last few days of the month..
I've kind of always imagined an October baby.. Its a pretty special month for us as we first met in October, we got married in October and I think a bub would be lovely for October.. However, I am realistic and am hopeful for a BFP on the first transfer but prepared for it to be a BFN..
I had originally wanted to do half IVF half ICSI but thinking about it I will be requesting all ICSI due to the sperm damage DH has.
I wanted to share this poem that I came across on the internet at some time.. It reminds me of how, when I will look at my little one, I will know I moved heaven and earth to have him or her in my arms. I offer it as our motto and our symbol, that whilst those around us cough and they are pregnant, complain at the price of a pram or whinge because they can't get their hair done because of their bump that we can look at them and know that we have endured financial burden to even dream of a child, that we have had to stab needles to dream of being a mum and that we would give anything to have regrowth and bad coloured hair if it meant our hands were cradling a rounded belly.
Love and baby dust to you all..
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbour, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother.
We'd been trying to conceive for 12 months and saw the GP had the sperm test and got the results (we knew there was a chance that it could have been DH's sperm as his brother has a very low sperm count as well - happily for him and his wife they had 2 babies naturally).
After getting the results off one of the GP's (who was going to delay the process) I decided to bit the bullet and call about an appointment to see the Fertility Specialist (we are with Fertility First in Hurstville) expecting a long wait so that we could get all the testing done and know where to go from here with DH's sperm issues and conceiving.
Well happily for me they had a cancellation so 5 days after I made the appointment we were seeing them. The GP I prefer was happy to give us the referral.
Fertility First had us do a bunch of tests (including the HYSCY - OMG it was painful) and DH's sperm underwent DNA Tunnel Assay Testing. This was where they discovered he had DNA Oxidisation damage and that IVF was the best bet to ensure we got a bub as soon as possible.
So, here we are. I was hoping we would have to do IVF (and maybe just IUI) but whatever it takes to have our baby in our arms... As Christmas rolled around again this year the knowledge that my baby cousin was pregnant with her 4th broke my heart.
The strength the beautiful women on here have who have been on this journey for many years is amazing. I often say to DH that I don't know if I have the strength. He reassures me I do. And deep down, I know I do. Because as hard as it is to remember that I always imagined having completed my family by the time I was 30, by God I sure will appreciate the babies I am given.
My first jab was better than expected. Seeing as I have some extra muscle in my tummy it didn't hurt (I did check with the FN if I needed to do it in my thigh due to the extra weight and she said nope, all it needed was the first tissue mass it reached). I was standing there grimacing as I was holding the needle above my belly (btw - wherever I read on BubHUb from one of the lovely ladies to take the needle out of the fridge.. TY.. It avoided a nasty sting) and started to grimace further as it touched my skin but nope, it just slid straight on in with no pain.. thank god I'm not a needle phobe.. lol
Oh, may I ask where your Accupuncturist is? I live in Sydney's west and would like to go to one but wasn't sure where to go?
Hugs & Baby dust
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I moved to Sydney a few months ago.I had an unsuccessful cycle in London followed by an unsuccessful one here in November.I am heading to Genea tomorrow to start round three.Just wondering if anyone else will be in in the morning?Be good to see a friendly face there for once
Well I’m now back from Holidays, refreshed and rejuvenated for 2012 and have a tonne of positive IVF mojo to spread around. Bring on all the well deserved BFP for us all.
Traveler: Oh honey i am so so sorry to hear your news, it’s heartbreaking. I have no words of wisdom to help you through this horrible time, but we are all here for you and i am sending you big hugs babe XX
Berecka: Welcome to the thread. Fingers crossed its Lucky Cycle 3 for you. Can i ask what is the reason you are doing IVF?
Jeb8303: Welcome also to out thread, it’s a wonderful group of ladies. We too are also doing IVF due to sever MFI. I have been tested for absolutely EVERYTHING and am “perfect”, yet here we are about to embark on IVF attempt number 8. I wish you all the best for your cycle. How are your injections going?
Lindylou: Your acu appointment sounds wonderful – did you have a session when you were there? I had acu yesterday and LOVED it. My acu told me that my energy levels are down and so are my iron levels so i am now eating lots of “blood building foods” to help with my lining get back up there and starting my pre ET rituals. Have you heard from the clinic about your BT and next US? So exciting that they are all growing so perfectly hon.
Felicita: Awesome news about starting your next cycle. Has AF showed up yet? The long down regs delay my AF by about 10 days as well. How is all of the Sharkeys stuff going?
Lola: How r u going hon? Have you thought about when you will do your next FET cycle?
Paddlegirl: Hey stranger. Glad to hear you are enjoying your break. Can’t wait to hear how your FS appointment goes and its all clear ready for your next cycle.
TTHC: Oh hon so sorry to hear about your Nov cycle. I agree with Lindylou about the 2nd cycle slump. It was my worst cycle by far, but then my 3rd cycle was the best by far. So sorry to hear about your dad, my thoughts are with you and your family. 2011 was a horrible year and can F*&k right off i say.
Quartz: So glad you enjoyed your time off, it’s so great to forget about IVF for a while. Yay for AF behaving, so are you back on the horrid E2 pills again?
Bebe: How are you feeling hon? I can’t see any update about your scan, how did it all go?
Hi to Bella, Crofty, and PinkB.
AFM: Had a great trip away, we forgot about everything to do with IVF for three weeks which was wonderful. I got the results from my biopsy and have no signs of endometriosis or any underlying infections and also my karyotype tests showed everything to be normal. I am very relieved. I now have been tested for ABSOLUTELY everything. AF was very well behaved considering the last 6 months have been so all over the place with my cycles and she arrived on CD 29 (Tuesday) so i am now tracking for a natural FET, ET will prob be around 30th Jan.
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