I hope someone out there has some advice for me.
I am am about to try to conceive through a sperm donor. He has bought his tickets and arrives in town in a week and a half. My partner and I have been waiting for this for a year!
But... I have been feeling awful for a while and have just been diagnosed with depression.
How I feel has really been effecting my life. I have had killer headaches all the time and have no interest in anything much anymore. I worry constantly and cannot function at work.
I told the doctor my pregnancy plans and that I was going to be pregnant very soon (with any "luck") and she said that that would be a good thing - but I'm not sure how lucky I would be now.
Even knowing my plans to conceive, the doctor prescribed me Zoloft (I bought the no-name brand). She also advised me I should talk to someone and this will help.
I have been dreadful for the last few days, constantly worrying about taking these pills. I looked them up and there is alot online about birth defects etc. But there is also alot (in these forums even) of discussion by women who claim they took the drug and their babies were fine.
The problem I think is that I feel like I have a choice to make -look after myself or go ahead with our plans.
And I can't do both without taking these drugs.
I haven't even been using deodorant with Aluminum in it for 6 months because I was worried about this future baby.
I don't know if I can knowingly take something that might harm the baby and then get pregnant. It feels irresponsible.
But then I don't want to put a stop to this dream me (and my partner) have had for so long - cus that feels hopeless and depress me even more.
Any advice would be soooo appreciated.
I'm seeing the doctor again on thursday, but I can't stop worrying about this!