Hi I stumbled across this thread and could have written it too! I didn't realize that this was PND! I feel overwhelmed and anxious and most nights can't get to sleep because I dread spending the day alone with my child!! How absolutely horrible! It is so much harder than I could have ever imagined and I hate the mother I am sometimes I am not how I thought I would be. I guess I've just been hoping it would get easier but it's not. How long can PND last for? My LO is 13months.