Some may have read my other thread about vasospasms. This is a vent/tell me it gets better thread as I'm really struggling. I spent the night crying and feeling hopeless.
I had a pretty traumatic birth but then took to bf really well. After day 2 I had an epidural headache and had to try feed laying down for 2 days. I mustn't hve been doing it right because I got cracks and blisters within a day. I had two blood patches that haven't worked but am now able to feed sitting up. I'm using nipple sheilds as I'm still healing.
Then the vasospasms kicked in with full force. We have one LC in town who spoke to me last night over the phone. She Made things so much worse by telling me nothing other than I will lose my supply from using sheilds and most people with vasospasms give up bf.
So far I have great supply and have used sheilds since day 3. I understand it can affect supply but at the moment the pain from the vasospasms is bad enough, I can't physically and emotionally cope with trying to wean off them yet.
Bubs is gaining plenty of weight and every nappy change she is soaked but last night she was fussing at the breast and I was hysterical screaming at dp that I was starving her. If the shops had been open I woulve gotten formula
Bf is really important to me and my baby loves feeding. I just feel so bad for using sheilds, for risking my supply, for crying when she feeds, for getting frustrated.
Someone tell me it is worth it