Abubby You sound like you're coping remarkably well under the circumstances. I know it's devastating not getting to transfer. I have a neighbour who had IF TTC for 3 yrs she also has PCO & Endo but her religious beliefs prevent her from doing IVF so she did NaProTechnology & fell pregnant within the first month. She hassles me to do it but when I looked into it they have a v high success rate with treating PCO & of course younger women generally have a much better chance. Not sure where you live but I believe there are a few in most states. Just wanted to let you know in case it's something that you hadn't heard of b/c I hadn't until my friend told me. She has 2 DD's from NaPro assistance, it is much less expensive and a lot less invasive. I know there is MF to consider in your case.
I understand about not being emotionally there yet re D.Es. We are here to support you on your journey to becoming a Mum whichever way it takes to get there.