LG38, I hope the BT tml will show great results.
Ness, i saw a fellow ivfer in a thread in BH having her bfp and her HCG was 45. So it could be your little one wanted to stick?
AFM : Yesterday I was a basket case cos i was imagining all the negative things that could happen after my AM BT. I became anxious and nervous that I would lose my baby. I think I have actually not gotten over my last miscarriage two years ago!!! In my heart I am so scared it will happen again. I took DS out to playground before his piano lesson, sat at the playground and started crying. This so when I saw two young toddlers laughing and playing with their mums, plus one of the mum was heavily pregnant. I did not know what was wrong with me but I just fell apart! And I had to stop coming to forums because every time I saw negative things i started going crazy. DH wanted me to stop coming in completely as he knows my imagination is very very wild.
So I may not be here so often now...I think I really need to go away at the moment.
Thankfully BT result came in good...HCG 13000+ after 8 days and P4 is 300+... DH was so concerned about me he called FN earlier and smsed me the readings...that was when I started crying at the playground. I think I am mad...and very emotional at the moment. I just feel I cannot lose my baby/babies but I totally am not in control...and i am very much a control freak...I really need to learn to just let go and enjoy this time...DH says anything can happen, just enjoy right now...there will be much more if I want to imagine...down syndrome test etc etc...he said one million and one things can go wrong so dont worry and just relax...I will try to do just that...I am so so sorry ladies for the rant...I think I needed to deal with my own demons. I so wish to be here to support anyone of you but all this waiting is also driving me nuts.
Pls know that I will be thinking of you ladies.