MrsOC - Thank you so much, I at least now know that I am not losing it and thats the best explanation of how it feels when others tell you their wonderful news.
I had a day 2 transfer as only one egg fertilised and today I am 7dp2dt so have been taking the Crinone for 6 days. It really is quite awful stuff. This is my first cycle and didnt use Synarel but I have been reading what the rest of you post about it. They do appear to be the worst offenders. I do also have a really bad cold which is making me feel yukky which is probably not helping.
Hopefully it will all be worth it and the foreboding feeling that I have is unfounded and also Crinone related!!
I hope AF comes for you soon so that you can get on with your next cycle ( is it normal for AF to be delayed after a cycle?) I'm still very green about all this trying to learn as I go along.
Good luck to us all, I think we all deserve a miracle for what we go through with this IVF caper