i've previously had an appt at a fertility specialist (sept), however my 1st visit was actually just for a pap/gyno exam and not even fertility related. but i took suggested a test i never heard of (anti mullerian hormone) that showed a low result of ovarian reserve and today went back to discuss. a while ago when i got the result i researched a bit and had a little freak out, but then calmed down and thought maybe it wasn't so bad and relaxed a bit.
today i ended up going back to discuss the result and was going in with a positive outlook and not thinking the worst.. just thinking we should probably get seriously thinking about getting going and if we wait too long in future then we'd have to worry (we were thinking of ttc around july-nov, so i thought probably would be safe but not to wait any longer)
so we discussed my result (7.7 amh, i'm 32) and everything came crashing down in minutes! it was so much more serious than i thought. i am going back in one month to retake the test and told to bring my husband to discuss things we talked about. but no other tests were mentioned, however the dr did mention thinking about freezing my eggs and ivf! (because dr suggested we start trying asap, but it is complicated as i have an illness and am on meds which i cannot be on whilst preg and need to lose a bit of weight + just don't know if i am ready to start asap with how emotional i am lately! ) i was crying and am so soworried! when i got the result origionally i was worried after researching and then relaxed a bit before this appt. now after today i am a wreck! aparrently it could go from 7.7 to 1 in one month! and now i'm worrying why i'm waiting the month to get back there.. shouldn't i be going back and freezing my eggs asap???
i have to see my specialist in a couple weeks to talk about this.. because i'm not sure i could safely get pregnant now or in a few months (because of the meds and my weight -- the meds are very dangerous in pregnancy and not sure if i could start to be weaned off now and how long they take to get out of the system. plus the less i weigh at pregnancy the better, especially since i would nto be able to be on my meds, right now i'm about 78k and was hoping to be around 65-70 when i got pregnant). and i'm not even sure i could take ivf drugs (as i cannot take birth control ever again in life). my husband and mil keep saying be positive and whatever is meant to be will be, but i am struggling not to break down. i don't know how i can function at work tomorrow! then i'm thinking of work (i have a really stressful demanding job) and should i tell my boss or coworkers or?? my mind just won't stop...
ps i posted this in the wrong area yesterday. i went to work today and only broke down once thankfully. but i feel overwhelmed and would just be grateful if anyone could weigh in on this.
i know everyone is different in their bodies and such, but is it usual for the results to go down within a month or so? does it seem likely we will have to do ivf to get pregnant? i'm having trouble even understanding amh and things. if we freeze our eggs.. does that mean you need to do treatments to get pregnant? also, i just don't understand that the dr said it could go down in one month.. then why is he just having me go back to retest in one month?? shouldn't i be going back asap to freeze eggs? its all so complicated and confusing and overwhelming!