Well I guess I really just need to vent, it's so hard not being able to talk to family and friends about our ttc journey, but we didn't want the added pressure of constantly being asked are you pregnant yet.
Now it appears, we had good reason to do so, as we have just found out that hubby isn't producing any sperm. It may be a development issue or a hormonal issue and he has to undergo further tests, but it is uncertain whether he will ever be able to father our children (biologically at least).
I love him to bits and will stand by him no matter what and consider all our options, but it's quite soul destroying to find out, especially when we wanted a little baby so much.
To top it off I got an email at work to say that one of the girls is pregnant with her first and she is so super excited and I found it so difficult to be happy for her and I feel so terrible about that.
Anyways, thanks for listening xox