or am I just a cr@p mother?
This is what I think: I love my kids, but I hate being a mum.
Well, perhaps "hate" isn't the best word, but I know that I am sick of it. I have been a sahm for 7 years (and a single one for 1 year) and I am over all the bullsh!t from it. Sure, there are good times but I just miss my old life, I am sick of staying home trying to be the "good mother" who bakes cookies or does school things etc. I actually know I'd be a better mother if I had a full time job and only saw my kids a few hours a day. I hate relying on Centerink and child support for income, I don't fee important or even worthy. I count down the days when the kids go to their dads (or their Aunty and Uncle's).
So please tell me I am not the only one that feels this way. Believe me if daycare wasn't so damn expensive I'd put the kids in tomorrow if I could and get back to work and/or study full time.