So sorry I've been MIA for a few days...back at work now
Since I'm at work I'm limited for time, but just wanted to pop in and see how everyone was going - wow, so much has happened in just a few days!
I hope you all are doing well at your various stages - sorry, I'll have to save the personals for tomorrow when I have more time, but for now I just have to say a big CONGRATS babystepswa - you've graduated! I'm so happy for you, you certainly deserve it after all that you've been through. Hopefully you can pass some of that babydust on to the rest of us! Come on little bean, stick and grow big and strong! xx
AFM, I haven't been coping very well during this 2WW. My lower back pains and cramping became so intensely bad that I had given up hope for this cycle and had resigned myself to the fact that it would never work... how could it possibly work when I've had two cycles with perfect blasts fail before and then have another cycle with two perfect blasts fail?
I had a big cry on Sunday but decided anyway to POAS on Monday morning (8dp5dt) and it was BFN (although there was a very, very, very faint line - I had to squint to see it - I assumed it to be an evap line). Just to be sure, I POAS again on Monday night and it looked exactly the same. I assumed it was still BFN as the line didn't darken. I did another on Tuesday morning and again in the evening, which looked the same - still no darker. I thought that definitely meant BFN. They are cheap internet tests so I thought that must be what they all look like. Since I have 50 tests, I thought what the hey, I can spare another so I did one today (10dp5dt) and the line was very faint, but darker....could it possibly be???!! I stared at it several times this morning wondering if my luck had finally changed. So I bought a digital on my way to work and snuck away to the toilets...within seconds the words "Pregnant 1-2" came up....OMG!!!!! Is this really happening?
OTD is tomorrow, so I am cautiously optimistic until I get the blood results. I don't want to get my hopes up. Given that I thought it was BFN, I did a huge run yesterday (10km) in the hot weather, overheated, etc...so now I'm really concerned I may have done harm to it. I feel so stupid for working myself up so much for a fail, that I may have ruined everything...
I guess I'll just have to cross fingers and wait for the results tomorrow. Will pop in again tomorrow & let you know how things go xx