Hi everyone, I am only a casual poster on these forums but I really need some support right now from other mothers and mothers that may be going through what I am. I usually have to be the strong and composed person but at this time in my life I feel like I am falling apart. As some of you know I have a nine month old daughter and I love her to pieces, she is my world. In the last three or four months my personality has started to change, I can see this but I feel like I can't stop it. I have been feeling really sad and angry at things which would never usually phase me or make me upset. If my daughter doesn't sleep enough I get upset or if my husband just says something stupid to me I just fly off the handle. I don't usually cry at all but lately I cry all the time, sometimes out of anger and sometimes out of sadness. I have a great family support network and my husband is great, I am not alone and I know they will support me no matter what but I feel like I am slipping as a mother and am not coping as well as I would like to. I spend more and more time at home and don't feel like socialising like I used to, I am a fairly outgoing person most of the time and enjoy talking to people but lately I just don't feel like interacting with people. I have thought about harming myself and not so much suicidal but more of a harm just to release tension iykwim. In my heart I know that I am suffering depression but I suppose it is hard to come to grips with it. I am going to see a gp on monday finally and hopefully get back to my normal self. I suppose I am just trying to get some answers or talk to other people who feel like this or understand what I am going through. Thankyou for reading if you have gotten this far, it just feels really good to finally get it out in the open.