Needing a vent/'rant/cry....

**Lucasmumma** · 20-09-2011 15:00

Hi ladies,
Im on my fresh cycle,just a few days before egg pick up *hopefully* friday..
Anyway im one of the people that have told so few people in our RL that I literally have NOONE who I can talk to about this,well at least anyone that can relate.
Nothing major is going on, just a normAL day. Im on day 13 of my meds and im a hormonal wreck.

I just feel so sad today and so alone. I know all the reasons we chose not to speak about this IRL,but (especially being a talker) I am just feeling like i have not a friend in the world today. (Probably the meds talking I know,and the ol estrogen being high high high given im right before EPU) Ive been so teary all day and the one friend can usually count on to cheer me up and talk to 1)has not being available to me for this whole cycle,hasnt even asked once how i am without me hinting towards anything and 2)has some news today im not sure she knows how to feel about. So i feel guilty laying it all on her today.(even though I did just send a hormonal text and just got a reply of "well hopefully itll all pay off".FERTILE PEOPLE!!!)
Anyway now im coming off totally crazy but i just wanted to know if anyone else is in this space today and needs to chat/vent/cry with me.>??

**RiverSong** · 20-09-2011 15:10

Hey Lucasmumma, you're not alone. My head's all over the place too and I don't start my meds till tomorrow. Hang in there!

**lola77** · 20-09-2011 15:15

Hugs to you. I know you weren't happy with her response but your friend does have a point. I promise you that when you hold that baby in your arms, all the tears, injections, invasive procedures and worry does totally pay off!
I know it's hard but this is exactly what BH is good for. You can chat / vent to people who know EXACTLY what you're going through.

Hope epu goes vvvv well!!

**Lucasmumma** · 20-09-2011 15:16

lol,thanks! just getting it out of my head helped heaps...you will be fine too its just all the build up

goodl luck x

**Lucasmumma** · 20-09-2011 15:18

Thanks lola.
yeah i know. i have one DS already. this is our 3rd attempt at number 2. so i guess im just feeling like its all gettign too much today

I know she is right. and im just being ridiculously sensitive..
i guess sometimes it would be nice for them to try understand the emotional side instead of just trying to understand the science.
Arg, cue crazy hormonal woman to sign off lol@!

**lola77** · 20-09-2011 21:41

Originally Posted by Lucasmumma

Thanks lola.
yeah i know. i have one DS already. this is our 3rd attempt at number 2. so i guess im just feeling like its all gettign too much today

I know she is right. and im just being ridiculously sensitive..
i guess sometimes it would be nice for them to try understand the emotional side instead of just trying to understand the science.
Arg, cue crazy hormonal woman to sign off lol@!

Sorry, I'm on the iPhone app and can't see signatures! I'm in a similar situation. DS just turned 2 and I'm on fresh cycle number 4 this year. Had a miscarriage 2 months ago so am more nervous then usual. I'm only on lucrin and not even started FSH yet and I'm going crazy. Today was not a good mummy day - I had no patience for constant toddler whinging and ended up shouting lots.

Hope your day was better!

**Lucasmumma** · 21-09-2011 05:14

@Lola Wow you are certainly amazing!! I'm on fresh cycle 2 and one FET this yr all bfn. Sorry about your mc : ( fingers tos and everything crossed

**Lucasmumma** · 21-09-2011 05:14

I also had bad mummy day!!

**Lucasmumma** · 21-09-2011 11:25

Oh meshell I was the same more bloods and us this morning too

Everyone understands the science and not the emotion I think?! :s
Noe my epu may be delayed to Monday bloody follies aren't increasing FFS lol!!!!
How did you get on this morning?
BOOO to your dad MEN!!!!!
gees I hope you are right about lots of little babies as this may be our laSt shot just can't afford to keep going,financially emotionally everything but well worry about that in a few weeks!! Think that's where all the emotion is coming from!! Plus I'm guessing the ol estrogen i getting up there too lol!!
Let me know how you get on, where are you cycling?