Laned, I know exactly how you feel...I had a horror time on the progesterone, and the coctail of drugs over time, and all the stress of our first cycle and I too was in a difficult place within. My partner and I had a pretty hard time together after transfer, and things only got better when I did my bt. It is a ****ty, stressful time, but it will pass, and after wed, you will have a new plan one way or another. As you know, I returned for a second cycle a 6 weeks later, and actually being in CT alone in that weird frame of mind was the best thing I could have done. My mum wanted to come with me, but with an already precarious relationship, I told her that the meds make me crazy, and it would not be good for us to go together.
So what I am saying is, go easy on yourself, do something nice just for you, and be mindful that this whole process has been difficult for you both. In my flurry of anger and sadness, I had not really considered the impact the whole experience had on the fella. Huge cyberhug for you, WJ xxx