I have had a few things pop up this pregnancy that I haven't experienced before, nor have I ever pondered the possibility of how I would react to them. Firstly I began having infrequent premature labour symptoms around 25wks. My IM diagnosed it as being Irritable Uterus (IU). So I began on magnesium to ease up the symptoms, and its worked a treat!
Then a few weeks ago I had absolutely unbearable itching and have had a couple of blood tests. I believe that I may have a very mild case of Obstetric Cholestasis (OC) which has increased risks of stillbirth after 38wks (10-15% risk of stillbirth). My midwife doesn't think I have OC, but being the fabulous midwife that she is, she's willing to allow me to be intuitive and trust my instincts which I feel are telling me to get baby out by 38wks. Of course, for me to still have a homebirth BEFORE 38wks, I only have 1 week to self-induce. My midwife has agreed to do a S&S for me, and I am booked in for inductive acupuncture and will begin EPO and RLT at 37wks.
But then I have the question hanging over my head... IF baby doesn't budge before 38wks at home, what then? Will I stay at home to birth? Or will I head into hospital to birth? Whilst the risk of stillbirth is still low'ish - its still a higher risk than a regular birth. Which begs the question - if I had a stillbirth, would I prefer to do it in the comfort of my own home, or in a hospital? OR if I had a stillbirth at home, would I have wished that I had gone to hospital? Babies die in hospital more frequently than they do at home and my midwife would pick up any minor changes a lot faster at home than in hospital... This is a question I have never really pondered - and whilst I'm feeling confident that we're going to be able to successfully self-induce at home (because premature labour is common with both IU and OC) I still feel like I need to just speak the issue out loud and just be at complete peace with what I come up with.
As a homebirther, where would you prefer to have a stillborn baby? Do you think a hospital could prevent a stillbirth more than an IM at home? I have complete faith in my midwife, and I truly feel that it is in my babies best interest to stay at home - but IF something happened, would I be able to still feel as strongly as I do now??