OK, don't go calling me awful or a b!tch or anything but I'm going to make some confessions and i want you all to make some too so I don't feel so horrid.
First off, I am a SAHM, I've worked on and off for the 10 and a half years I have been a SAHM for and LOVED the time out I got for myself but it was only about 10 hrs a week so nothing to skite about.
I go to Uni now but other than that and the gym, I don't do anything 'adult'.
Anyway, I am quite over it to be honest.
I have loved spending these 10 years at home with my 4 kids (10, 8, 6 and 4yrs) for the most part but enough is enough. I dont want to wipe bums anymore, I dont want to make smiley frikken face sandwiches for lunch anymore, I don't want to eat every meal with someone stealing crap off my plate or climbing on me, or asking for something.......
Yep, I'll take you to the park, but don't expect me to hover over you to make sure you're having a good time- I bought you to the park, go play. If you need a push on the swings, sure thing, i'll do that, but dont expect me to stand there for 3 hrs- not gunna happen.
I feel bad because people assume that I am sad I'm having no more babies (and until 2 yrs ago that was the case) but I'm not. Yep, I'll hold your baby while you do something or even just for 5 mins to shake off my yellow feathers but I dont want to spend our whole lunch date holding your baby- been there done that and if I am out to lunch then I kinda would like to eat mine? (that sounds SO awful but I hope someone out there can relate)
Yeah, sure you can have a friend over to play. I dont like play dates at all but I 'do' them because the kids like to have their friends over but please dont expect me to be happy to ferry you and your friends around all weekend- I would like some down time too and if I am catering to yours and your friends needs that means that I dont get that time. Just an hour?
And I dont care that if when your at Johnny's house his mum is happy to clean up your mess- I am not doing it, if you make a mess, clean it up. easy! I'm your mum, not your maid.
After play dates there is usually food crumbs, and crap all through the bl00dy house so then I have to go through and clean it all over again.
At dinner time- I cooked your tea, I will even clean most of the mess up after it but you know what?If your thirsty mid meal and you've run out of juice? Go get it yourself- the fridge is in the same place it has always been all your life. I dont like having to get up to get your drink if you guzzled it.
Whats that? You want to play another sport? Really? Because dropping various kids to various after school activities 4 afternoons a week is not enough? You serious? I'm not sure where you would like me to pullall this time from.
And DH? Yes, i AM allowed to whinge and freaking moan about the monontony of my 'job'. Honestly, it is the same sh!t every day here. Wake, shower, cup of tea, referee a fight, make breakfast, referee a fight, clean up from b/fast, fight the kids t get dressed, referee a fight, wipe bathroom down, hassle them to clean tetth and pack school bags, ref another fight, hurry them into car drop 3 at school, ref another fight over who is sitting in what freaking chair in the car, drop them off, and exhale.
And crucify me now but YES. I love my Fridays. Fridays I get to go to Uni ALL day. ALL day! I get to ave a coffee AND lunch with adults. I get to talk to adults ALL day long. I LOVE it.
I LOVE my kids,a dn I love the opportunites they have and I love my family but sometimes I just want to run far far away.
Please, someone else post so i dont feel like the worst mother on the planet!