Wednesday we lost our little one at 9 weeks 5 days. I had no symptoms just a gut feeling something wasn't right.. Unfortunately our little ones heart had stopped when I had an ultrasound. Next thing I know I am at my obs in a mess and sent down to the surgical ward to wait to go into theatre.
This was my first pregnancy and my first loss. I'm so incredibly sad and don't understand why this has happened to me. I am a heathy person, eat right, look after myself. I know that it's not my fault as everyone keeps telling me but why do I feel this way and why at 8 weeks bub had a strong heart beat of 165bpm then a week and a half later it's just gone?? I feel like my heart is broken and my happiness has been ripped out of me. One day I am excited and happy then all of a sudden it's taken away with no warning besides a gut feeling somethings not right.
What do I do? I just keep crying and crying and it still doesn't feel better.
Am I ment to be a mother? Everyone tells me miscarriage is common but I just don't understand why. We are hoping to get some pathology results back in 3-4 weeks to hopefully explain what went wrong but that still won't ease my pain. I just want our little one back and all to be ok!