Starfish - , the journey you have had is so awful, life is just so unfair sometimes. I can't imagine what you are going through because I havent been in that position but I know if it was me I would also be grieving. It's our dream to have a baby using our own eggs and Hubbys sperm so it's totally understandable that you would feel this way. (Sorry I know what I want to say but I cant get the words right today) It might all be part of the process you have to go through to accept it - the grief and anger that you are placed in this position but it doesnt make it any easier to handle. Just know that I am thinking of you
I also have everything crossed for you that your 1st ED cycle will give you your longed for sticky bub.