everyone and thanks starfish for starting this thread. When I read it I couldn't not join it.
I only started IVF last year but I am already up to 7 fresh cycles (actually 8 as one was cancelled just the day of EPU because of the Brisbane flood) and 3 frozen ones. All BFN with one assumed chemical after my FET #1 (basically it was just based on my feeling/symptoms of being pregnant and AF arrived before BT day so technically it was a BFN). This in addition to 5 years of trying the natural way. I've never seen a double line in all my TTC career and I am also at a point where I envy people that have m/c or chemical pregnancies cos at least they can say they had a BFP!!!
When we started TTC I didn't think it was going to take me this way. And I thought "well I have been unlucky that I can't conceive naturally, surely I can't be so unlucky twice that also IVF won't work?". Well here I am, 7 cycles later and still counting. IVF has become a routine in my life to the point that I take that into account in any plans for the future (e.g. holidays) like if I will be doing IVF for the rest of my life. That's unfortunately how it feels for me. I can't imagine the day I will get a BFP.
But I am not giving up. Until someone can prove me without doubts that I cannot have my own baby I will keep trying. I have eggs, we make good embryos, endo is gone and NK cells are under control. I can't see why I should give up. My FS has started talking about ED but I told him I am not ready yet. There is always time to go the ED route, but I only have a limited time to try with my own eggs.
Also when I think about my embryos (or future babies as I see them) they only have me fighting for them and no one else. Dh is not going to fight for them, FS is not going to fight for them. I am the only chance they have to become babies and to have a future. I own it to them to keep trying .
My message to you all, don't give up and you're not on your own, there's many IVF warriors out there, I just think that people often stop posting because the disappointment is too big and seeing everyone else moving on hurts. But we are still there