WishingHoping, I am so very sorry to hear what you've been going through. Nothing I say is going to make your situation better, but I hope you find some comfort in knowing that many of us are thinking about you and wishing so much more for you than what you have going on at the moment. You deserve so much more than the hand you've been dealt. I'll keep this short but hope to see you on BH with your own good news in the not too distant future. I'll be keeping my eye out for you In the meantime, take good care of you.