Wow trish I'm sorry you had to go through that at the hospital we can really be our own worst enemy some times ... But sometimes when we feel better it's other people who drag us down because of our past.
thanks for your responses... I think maybe I'm just sometimes not ready to grow up... But on the other end of the spectrum.. There's nothing I want more then to marry DP and have his babies. We are TTC and maybe the failure of that is piling on top of everything else.